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Not so perfect
People always crib about their life because of their expectations from it. Why were you expecting something from it? Why can’t we just give everything a shot without expecting a payback on time? A little delay leads to the famous dialogue, “I don’t believe in God because he is too busy making others happy.”
Kiara tried keeping everyone happy in her life. If things didn't work out her sister or brother she would blame herself for being irresponsible. She tried keeping her parents happy. She did all she could. She did her best with education, people, love, friends, career… she still wasn't happy with the outcomes. Because she was still not employed, she was still not a perfect sister or a perfect daughter.
She had her expectations from life. Because she did her masters she wanted the best job, because she gave good presentations in college she wanted a good salary package. It wasn't too much that she was asking for. It was obvious she was getting agitated seeing her friends getting placed and getting promoted. These things always made her wonder as to where did she go wrong.
She was not wrong. She hoped that she made lesser mistakes. She wished that she could keep everyone around her happy and sometimes also wished that she didn't listen to everyone. In short she anticipated a lot of things.
Everything takes its own sweet time. Why do we get so worried if we don’t receive a return spontaneously? Why do we blame ourselves for things not working out for someone else? Why don’t we just understand that this time is not right?
According to Oscar Wilde, ‘’Experience is the name we give our mistakes.” I true that and totally agree. Except for instruction manuals no one should tell you what to do. Just because something didn't work out for someone else doesn't mean it has to go bad for you. You won’t learn till you walk, fall, get up and start walking all over again.


It’s easy to get all philosophical but it is not at all difficult working on it. It’s a good thing Kiara tries to live for others. But she has lost herself in between these people. In between those instructions given to her she went astray with her ideas. In this loud world she silenced her dreams. But once the time is right she will break free and things will work according to her because she hasn't lost all hope. She will be strong, she will face the world with a smile but she has a million reasons to do so. 

-Samanah. Rizvi
  12th July 2013
  16:33 p.m


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